Today was a nice day – got out of the house, and did some geocaching… A gorgeous day for a drive through the hills of North Livermore.
Then I got home… I started thinking about work, and how I really should be doing some, since the client has fewer staff using the systems at night on a weekend. Did I manage it? Uh, not even close – I didn’t even manage to get some things done that needed to be done for me.
I have absolutely no energy right now… I know it’s a symptom of my disease, and I’m under treatment, but sometimes that treatment seems to fall short. Enthusiasm for life wanes, and I just find I want to veg out on the couch. Heck, I barely even feel like I have the mental fortitude to write here.
I could just go to bed… But, I know from experience, that this won’t address the issue – I’ll lie awake for hours when I feel like this, with thoughts of absolutely no consequence rushing through my brain.
I’m working on finding an answer, but it’s a long slow process – I know it’s not going to happen overnight, but, in the meantime, I have to find my way in the dark. It’s not going to be easy…